Trust in Him

        These past few months have been really hard for me. Between graduating High School, going to Kamp and getting everything together for college. It all started with finding out that my dad could not renew his teaching contract because Texas is cutting education. I had no clue it would have an effect on my Financial Aid for college. I have been accepted to Southwestern Christian University in Bethany, Ok. I thought everything was fine and dandy, and all excited to go to college. Then to find out at the and of July, that none of my Financial Aid had come through yet. I kept asking God, "Why has it not come through yet?" along with doubting myself in my future. I had to remember to trust in Him.
Proverbs 3:5-6  "Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight."  I really started to push on that, and kept reminding myself to trust in the Lord because He got my back.
       Then at the beginning of July I started to really worried, because I knew that everyone else has received information from FASFA, why haven't I. So I decided to call Southwestern and they said they would have it for me in a week. That next week I was at Higher Ground (which is a Servant Leadership Camp that partners with KAA) and I knew I could make it through the week knowing that "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" -Philippians 4:13
       July 18th I came home from HG, all high on Jesus! Excited to see what God has in store for me, to find that He has a way different plan. I came home and my dad still had not heard from Southwestern, which made me start questioning my future. Why am I not getting any money? Why is God doing this to me? All these questions and doubts were going through my head. Then during a quite time I came across Isaiah 41:10 "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Which is saying cry out to Him and He will strengthen you. That I don't need to be so stressed out that God upholds me in His righteous right hand, and he will strengthen and help me.
      A few days ago we called up to Southwestern to talk to someone in Financial Aid. When we were done talking to them I had no hope what so ever. I had found out I would have to pay $5,000 out of pocket, which the family does not have right now. I asked God, " Which way do you want me to go? I am completely lost God, and I'm out of choices. Where do you want me to go?" At this point I has lost all hope in going to Southwestern. I kept praying about the will God has for me. I finally just said, "God I give it all to you! Take my life in your hands, and take controll of it. If your will is not for me to go to Southwestern, then what is it? It is all in you hands Lord. Help me, give me strength." I then texted all my friends asking them how I could get more financial aid. Then Pastor J texted me telling me to call this lady. So I did, and she told me and my dad to meet up with her tonight. We met up with her, and she gave me so many different websites for scholarships, and told my dad he could go reapply for the Pell Grant since the income of the house had change.
      Now, I just found out that I have about $9,000 in Financial Aid/Pell Grant. The Lord sent an angle to help us! Giving your life to God to mold it how He wants it was the best thing that could of happened to me this summer! I encourage everyone to Trust in the Lord no matter what the situation is; rather in my situation, family, school, any situation. God will take control over it if you just tell Him and ask Him for help!

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." -Jeremiah 29:11-13